2. We move in less than 2 weeks! I am having a lot of anxiety about it--having second thoughts, wondering if we were rash to put the house up for sale, worrying about the traffic in the new neighborhood, the extended commute, the loss of our yard, the risk of having shitty landlords. But then I remind myself:
- School district. Best school district.
- Four bedrooms. Four!
- No plumbers. No electricians.
- My sister. My sister's BABY.
- Fresh start. New home, new environment, new dynamic.
Bwahahahahahahaha, yes, I know, that last part... funny. One can hope.
3. I am getting really positive feedback at work. One faculty member I have worked with pretty closely, and will be working with a lot more as he was newly named co-director of my grant, delighted in a small error I made the other day. "It is nice to know that you are mere mortal, after all," he said. (In the nicest way possible, really.)
I was given a lot of freedom in planning a large event over the last couple of months, and it has gone extremely well. And then my (former) supervisor decided to hand over the direction of the grant to another faculty member, as she was just over-extended. She told me that it had been very nice working with me, but I no longer needed to meet with her or anything. I asked if I should officially have my "supervisor" updated by administration, and she laughed. "Pish," she basically said. The other director said, laughingly, "Do you NEED to be supervised?!" My (former) supervisor said, "NO!" Bwahahaha!
Yes, it's hilarious! Why would I want anyone to be in charge of me? Sweet. Or to be aware of what I'm doing? Even better. Or give me direction? Huh, well... Or evaluate me annually so that I can be considered for a raise? Hey, WAIT.
Anyhow, it does feel good to be respected. And I feel certain that I could have a couple of very strong references/recommendations from respected people here. And even though I will have to leave here, eventually, because of school, I feel like I will have opportunities here in the future, should I want them.
4. Mike and the kids went to the beach this week. I couldn't go because of school, and because of my event at work. It really worked out well, though, as I can work extra now and take off when we need to move, and I can pack and clean and throw away stuff without the kids being any the wiser. IF I could do that. I have accomplished nothing so far. My grandparents are in a very difficult transition and my mother needs support. I am planning my sister's baby shower. I have trouble getting motivated. And I'm just bummed out. They are at the beach. And I am here. And he took my babies.
